At first it is going to be a telephone call to the bank office or the local health clinic. I will be speaking to you thinking that I am speaking to another one of me. Then one day I will be looking into your eyes not knowing if you are human or if you are what you are. It’s going to be a transition of course and there will be resistance and protests and demonstrations and a new Greta Thunberg and...
She was the authority of this place and I was only a small drop in the sea of all of the hundreds of thousands of students that followed this tradition, therefore I was hesitant but I still mustered the guts to ask her that question: ”Why be here if I am already free?””If you would be free you would be Buddha and then you wouldn’t have any problem whatsoever sitting here and focusing in...
I put my pen down 11 years ago and told myself that I will not write again until I have found my own heart. In the beginning of those following years I met a man and he said to me: ”If you start on this journey, you will have things to write about for the rest of your life.” My greediness at the time had no doubt about that and I threw myself off the cliff and in the fall I lost my pen. Even...
I saw this video of a girl singing and I told her it was beautiful. She said thanks and carefully I asked for more. She gave me a recording and I listened and I asked for more. She gave me three recordings and I cried and I asked for more. She gave wonder and beauty and I asked for more. She gave tears and joy and I asked for more. She gave trembling out of fear and I asked for more. She gave...
I had met Her and it suddenly seemed like the whole body realized what it meant to fully feel that. It was terrifying and it felt like a straight and steep road that made every moment go faster and faster. During those days my mornings in the bed were very long and I lay still as a stone and felt the world eat my anxiety up and slowly turn it into love and so it was revealed to me, piece by...
Nowadays I don’t care a rat’s ass about Yoga. The whole scene of it is a circus — God dressing up as spiritual teachers preaching different versions of the messages ”you are going to feel better” or ”you are going to have a life-changing experience”. Some of these teachers even promise Nirvana to their students. Such arrogance! When I realized that the ”promise of Nirvana” actually wasn’t Nirvana...
I consider him to have been a womanizer, the me of ten years ago. During that period in time Lars would have jumped at any opportunity of connecting with an attractive woman. It was a quite intense job and a lot of painful defeats. The defeats seemed like a necessary evil in the pursuit of the female. Eventually it would always connect. Lars would go very deep very fast, always, without...