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Let’s call it Seeking

— He is such a seeker, is something that people tend to say when they want to describe a person with spiritual pursuits. For practical purposes it might be better to speak about seekers in that limited way, but nonetheless let me bring some clarity into the wording: The seeking dynamic is everywhere. If you are reading this text it is most probably in you. On a surface level it does tend to look...

A Societal Forest Fire

Life is eternal, but your life is not. It might sound rough but I suggest you stop your war with death, you will not win. But since you are already here you seem to have a couple of other options, two of them being: 1) Stay curious or 2) don’t. Even though it might bring a lot of pain and suffering — a societal forest fire is never a bad thing, the curiosity knows this. So when the fire gets...

Promises of Nirvana

Nowadays I don’t care a rat’s ass about Yoga. The whole scene of it is a circus — God dressing up as spiritual teachers preaching different versions of the messages ”you are going to feel better” or ”you are going to have a life-changing experience”. Some of these teachers even promise Nirvana to their students. Such arrogance! When I realized that the ”promise of Nirvana” actually wasn’t Nirvana...

What a fragile thing it is

I consider him to have been a womanizer, the me of ten years ago. During that period in time Lars would have jumped at any opportunity of connecting with an attractive woman. It was a quite intense job and a lot of painful defeats. The defeats seemed like a necessary evil in the pursuit of the female. Eventually it would always connect. Lars would go very deep very fast, always, without...

Touching death

To stop a virus like SARS-CoV-2 from spreading feels as possible as to stop the water from moving once you have thrown a stone in the lake. Even if you — with great effort — do succeed with constraining the movement of the water with magically implanted walls, then when can you be sure it’s safe to remove those walls again? The water is going to need to be completely and utterly still before you...

A blog with no images

By coming here you will be lending me your attention for a while. What a precious gift! Now, what will I do with it? I can fill it up with a lot of impressions, images, links, diagrams, videos and more. Or I can starve it, give it almost nothing. Would I want to fill it up with an overflow of impressions? If I were a parent, would I want to feed my kids with too much food? That answered itself...

The Way of Tea — part one

The children would run around like crazy, but she wouldn’t flinch for a second, neither would any child even dare to tamper with her delicate movements as she was brewing the tea. With everything whirling around her she seemed to be the eye of the storm, but I later found out I was wrong — it was the tea itself that was the eye! Ame (whom I also mentioned in this text) was the one who gave me...

Imprisoned by a Guru

When I was about to enter India, from the Nepalese border-city of Birgunj, one powerful thought shouted in my mind: ”Don’t go south! Go back east!”. I had planned to go to Kerala, the south of India, to revisit Saji, my original Yoga teacher. But now that didn’t feel so good. How come? I thought that was the whole point with this trip. Had I traveled with all of these trains, through Europe...

Yogurt and Tea

Chunlong (春龙) slapped me on my fingers when I tried to write my first Chinese character. I yelped and asked: ”What’s wrong, it looks exactly like yours?” He responded that it was not the looks of the character he criticized, but how it came into being. This was my first encounter with ”Dao”. The character Dao (道) translates as ”way” or ”principle”. Dao is the nature of the truest action, one can...

A Story of East and West

A few years ago I told my parents that I had a wish of living in China. In unison they exclaimed something like: ”Why go there? They are crazy.” All I could think was: ”Sane and crazy define one another.” I decided to go. About a month ago I entered the north border of China with the train from Moscow. I had gotten the opportunity to live there, not as a tourist, but as a participant of a...

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