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The Tea Triangle

I think I can see why we both had that strong sense of lightness at that time. It followed us around like a guardian angel and as we entered Myanmar through the border of Moreh-Tamu it made our steps fly on the roadside while searching for a place to stay that night. We had crossed the great river of Brahmaputra a few days before and now we seemed to have left yet another natural border behind...

Her

I had met Her and it suddenly seemed like the whole body realized what it meant to fully feel that. It was terrifying and it felt like a straight and steep road that made every moment go faster and faster. During those days my mornings in the bed were very long and I lay still as a stone and felt the world eat my anxiety up and slowly turn it into love and so it was revealed to me, piece by...

A story about green tea

My best time at the ashram was when I left it behind me and saw it disappear in the rear mirror of the car knowing that I was done with that place. The temples became jungle and the jungle became villages and the villages came more often until they were all city and soon we were sitting in a tight lobby of a cheap hotel in downtown Kochi and I was very relieved not to be in the grip of the Guru...

En historia om rött té

Världens tak kallar man ibland den omfattande platå som ligger norr om Himalaya-massivet. Det finns också andra namn, men för att inte utsätta mig själv för onödiga risker så väljer jag att inte använda dem, för när man talar om denna del av världen så gäller det att väga sina ord på guldvåg, särskilt om man en dag vill återvända dit. Och det vill man om man en gång varit där för det finns få...

Small goats in Thailand

As the taxi arrived so very early that Tuesday morning it soon became very clear that the once hopeful and lively Suvarnabhumi airport was now hollow and full of contempt. I removed my bags from the cab, paid the driver and started my walk to enter the huge complex. The gatekeepers seemed to be happy about my arrival, but that was about all of the ”the country of smiles” that still had survived...

Let’s call it Seeking

— He is such a seeker, is something that people tend to say when they want to describe a person with spiritual pursuits. For practical purposes it might be better to speak about seekers in that limited way, but nonetheless let me bring some clarity into the wording: The seeking dynamic is everywhere. If you are reading this text it is most probably in you. On a surface level it does tend to look...

A Societal Forest Fire

Life is eternal, but your life is not. It might sound rough but I suggest you stop your war with death, you will not win. But since you are already here you seem to have a couple of other options, two of them being: 1) Stay curious or 2) don’t. Even though it might bring a lot of pain and suffering — a societal forest fire is never a bad thing, the curiosity knows this. So when the fire gets...

Promises of Nirvana

Nowadays I don’t care a rat’s ass about Yoga. The whole scene of it is a circus — God dressing up as spiritual teachers preaching different versions of the messages ”you are going to feel better” or ”you are going to have a life-changing experience”. Some of these teachers even promise Nirvana to their students. Such arrogance! When I realized that the ”promise of Nirvana” actually wasn’t Nirvana...

What a fragile thing it is

I consider him to have been a womanizer, the me of ten years ago. During that period in time Lars would have jumped at any opportunity of connecting with an attractive woman. It was a quite intense job and a lot of painful defeats. The defeats seemed like a necessary evil in the pursuit of the female. Eventually it would always connect. Lars would go very deep very fast, always, without...

Touching death

To stop a virus like SARS-CoV-2 from spreading feels as possible as to stop the water from moving once you have thrown a stone in the lake. Even if you — with great effort — do succeed with constraining the movement of the water with magically implanted walls, then when can you be sure it’s safe to remove those walls again? The water is going to need to be completely and utterly still before you...

seemingly so it ain't so, it just seems to be

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